Curves in Blogging

I’ve been reading MissyCheerio more than ever this year as her posts are really inspirational, motivational and an eye opener to me. Her posts are really personal & it’s one of the blogs I read that does not have any advertorial or heavily photoshoped photos in them. After reading this, it reminded me of the reason I first stated blogging, back in high school. It was because of my Besties, Mechell. hey look, we even share the same english name! with different spelling.

Back then, Besties had always been someone influential to me. I look up to her in many ways possible. I love how she sees things in a different perspective, how she is always so creative with art work & I loved the way she write most! She had always scored the highest marks in class when it comes to writing an essay. You’ve got to read all the essays she wrote back then & I swear you’ll be blown off your mind! She even wrote an essay about me back then. and boy was I touched and amused when I read it. <3

We both started blogging on Xanga. I loved how she shared her life, her views, her thoughts, so much so that I started having one, to jot down memories and moments in life. What has happened in the past that has moulded me into who I’ve become today. Mistakes and experiences learned. I do read them once in awhile now to be reminded of what changed me & what made me stronger and tougher than ever. But I was also very much disgusted by the way I used to write & the things I used to do. Glad it’s all left behind now.

Stopped blogging almost 2 years ago as I had to much to deal with back then. Studies, friends, relationships & most importantly, judgement of others that I’ve caused upon myself. I got sick of people listening to one sided story & judging me for what happened. Truth is, we wouldn’t be where we were if both parties hadn’t screw up. But, I’ve learned the hard way that people will ALWAYS judge you without giving you the benefit of doubt.

It was a turning point of my life as I had to make a decision that will/might ruin someone. One being a person I used to love, another being someone I love and see a brighter future with. I chose the later & had been happier since (am still happy).  It was sure tough in the beginning, having to explain why I made that decision, having to face stares and dirty looks people throw you. Many thought I was foolish & stupid, but I knew deep down it was a right decision and time will tell. My family & close friends supported my decision & had always been there for me since.

It was a tough beginning especially when both our best friends does not approve of this. Criticism, public display of insults, judgement weren’t exactly helping either. But we both knew we had to work on this issues to be able to make it through. We almost fail a couple of times, we were that close to cutting all strings, but we knew deep down that we wanted to be with each other no matter how hard or how tough the situation will be. and we made it! we left the past behind us and worked our way through all the hardship. so much so that we can’t live without each other now.

The thing about a rough start of a relationship is that many would have given up from the beginning itself. But little did they know that once you pull through this stage, it will be the time of your life because there will be none of very minimal arguments and disagreements you will have to go through anymore. and that is how I feel about my relationship with Jie. We’ve reached that stage that even if we don’t see or hear from each other for a day or two, we’d know that we love & miss each other. We were never that kind of couple that sends each other cheesy long text messages or those that have to be on the phone for long hours. We can just call each other and say that we are tired & that we are going to bed now, good night. This relationship had always been a matured one, which is very surreal and realistic. All my past relationships, I have to remember and buy or make something on every monthversary, stay up to wish each other and text probably every minute, every second of the day. Which when I think back now seem so ridiculous! With Jie, we never remember any monthversary or bothered wishing each other because we think it’s somewhat stupid. The ones that only counts are the anniversary because it reminded us of how far we’ve come. (and ahem, presents )

The reason I started blogging again, now on WordPress, is once again to jot down moments & memories, the same reason I started blogging. Glad it’s a whole new start & journey on this one and I can sense that more good things are about to come! This blog will focus mainly on my personal life, Kiss & Tell, Jie, family and close friends. Because without them, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

I’m proud and glad of what moulded me to be who I am now.